Dreams

I had a weird dream last night that has had me thinking all morning. Now, anyone who knows me will know I always have crazy, weird & random dreams. Another fact about my dreams that people tend to point out to me is how vivid they are, and how well I remember them.

I have spoken to quite a few people who swear they don't dream at all, or they forget their dreams as soon as they have properly woken up. It's the opposite for me. I always bore my friends to death with my dreams, and the adventures my mind takes me on when I'm sleeping.

Last night I was dreaming that I was in WHSmith, and I was at the till paying for something when I looked to my side and saw one of my old friends a few feet away from me. Her name is Natalie, we had been friends since we were about 2 years old but I haven't spoken to her in over a year now...Anyway, I kind of looked away from her because I didn't know if I should say hi or anything. Eventually she noticed me at the till and came over. She was smoking a cigarette. She was being over-friendly like "HI, HOW AREEEE YOOUUUU?" and had a kind of smirk on her face. She made me feel quite uneasy. Anyway, then I asked her what she was up to these days. She told me she would be graduating from university next week, which I thought was a bit odd since last I heard she wasn't at uni. Anyway, she was still kind of sneering at me and talking fakely and being too nice. Then all of a sudden she put her cigarette on my back and rubbed it in, burning me, and then she ran away. I put my hand on my back and felt the round-shaped burn mark that had gone right through my skin through my skin, which was extremely painful...

That's all I can remember from the dream... I often wonder what dreams mean, and of course, I wonder what this was meant too (if anything).

Now I tried searching "having a dream where a friend burns you with a cigarette" on Google, but that only brought up articles titled "It's Hard Smoking a Cigarette When You're Pete Burns" and "How To Repair Cigarette Burns In Carpets" ...not helpful, lol.

Anyway, after a bit of searching online, I found a dream dictionary that said this "If you are hurt, you will have enemies who will overcome you" ...which doesn't really help a lot. In fact, it kind of confuses me a bit more. What does it mean "enemies who will overcome you"? What does that mean? As in, they will "succeed" and you will "fail"? Because that doesn't sound too good :/

Another website said this > Injury - You are injured: You may have been offended or emotionally hurt. You inflict injury: Signal that you are doing same to another person.

Which I suppose could be true in that respect as I have been feeling emotionally hurt by one of my so-called friends recently...But I don't know. Why was it Natalie in my dream, and not any of my other friends?

I'll probably never know. Another dream, another unanswered question.

Is it ever possible to live in a drama-free world?

Is it ever possible to live in a drama-free world?

In some ways I think that without drama then life would be dull and boring. But in other ways I know how much problems drama can cause and I wish it would go away.

I try not to associate myself with negative people. I do not like being dragged into other peoples bullshit, so for that reason I am not friends with liars and attention seekers. There are some evil people out there. Manipulative people, conniving people, bitches, liars, cheaters etc etc. But I don't see why they don't see what they are doing wrong? Why do they insist on living a life that makes other peoples lives hell?

I'm not perfect. I'm far from it, and I know I never will be perfect because perfection doesn't exist. However, I always look for ways to better myself and help myself to become a better person. And for this reason, I cannot associate myself with people who enjoy bringing other people down.

I get hurt. People do hurt me. Emotions can be a bitch. I hate those days you have where you've have a big argument with someone, or someone has done something nasty to you, and the whole day you have a heavy heart and generally feel like shit. I live for the days where I'm not hurting. I love being happy and I enjoy it.

Certain things make me happy...for example...music, friends, having a structure to your day, seeing friends and family etc. So when some of your so-called friends turn around and stab you in the back, it fucking hurts. When they start being immature and pathetic you have to start wondering. When you start to see their immaturity as a common occurrence then you have to take a step back and re-assess the situation. Is this a good enough friend of yours that you will work through the problems, accept them for being the way they are. Or maybe they aren't worth your time because everything has to be dramatic to them.

I seriously can't stand drama. Actually fucking HATE it. I think I feel this way because growing up as a teenager I was constantly surrounded by drama in every day life thanks, in large part, to my parents. So now I strive to live in a drama free world.

I hate drama...nothing ever good comes from it. The only thing it produces it hurt, pain, anger, confusion and lots of many other negative emotions.

Is it ever possible to live in a drama-free world? Honestly...no, I don't think it is.